Made time

I have been wanting to blog for over a month now, but I have sucked at making the time. So today I tried to "make time" during a nap, but the Geekling had other plans. Blogging aborted. Tried tonight to make time. I got the blue screen of death twice. Called the Geek Squad (ie husband). It seems there is a problem with an optional update and IE 9 (which I only use for blogging - something about gmail and the 4 gmail accounts I have) that causes the Blue Screen of death. Viola! Jeeves (husband) finds this problem and fixes it. 30 minutes after I try to start blogging, I can actually start typing!

I am making time everywhere people!

I was chatting with a friend the other week. She and her partner had their baby just a day before Charlie, so we were catching up about our little time drainers. She also wanted to make sure that I was doing ok. Some of my internet posts had her a little worried that I might not be doing ok, that I might not be enjoying parenting. I laughed and reassured her, but also thanked her for checking up on me.

For as much as I might share (ok, overly share) how little sleep I get, when I am not a stumbling zombie, I find that I am greatly enjoying parenting more than I thought I would. I still GREATLY miss sleeping for more than 3 hours in a row, and I would give my best nursing bra to sleep for 5 hours in a row. But most of the time, I would still do it again. (Although that would require actually having energy to have sex, which is still eluding me. Poor Jeeves.) But the good news is that I am too tired to worry about the fact that I am probably messing Charlie up! A routine? What's that? Nap schedule? I put him to sleep when he is sleepy! 15 minutes of reading to him every day? Sure, most of the time, but I have to work hard just to remember to brush my teeth daily! Don't let your baby watch tv? Hey, a girl has to get dressed and if the Price is Right distracts him enough so I can, then 10 minutes of the Price is Right it is!

(Now where was I? My "made time" is during laundry and I had to run another rinse cycle on the diapers.)

Oh yes - I did have one new mom meltdown. But surprisingly it wasn't about me worrying that I was doing something wrong with the Geekling. It was about all the things in life that WEREN'T baby related that I was struggling to get done. I had locked my keys in the car at the grocery store (when I had the Geekling with me), I had forgotten a card for my nephew's birthday, my house was a mess, and just a whole lot of other little life things that piled up and overwhelmed me. I felt like the only thing that I COULD do was parent the Geekling. Luckily the breakdown didn't last long, and my nephew was not permanently scarred. My loved ones cared enough to ask what was wrong, and knew enough to wait until I was able to talk about it. But basically it boiled down to parenting the Geekling was taking up more time than I anticipated and I was struggling find any life balance. (Still struggling! But managing better. Mostly just ignoring the cat hair tumbleweeds that have invaded my house.)

Well its 10pm already and little Geekling will be up between 7 and 8 (and 1 & 3, and 4 & 6) so I better go to sleep. Night all!